I grew up in a home where I was severely sexually and physically abused, as well as mentally and emotionally, by my father. I was also beat up at school every day by a gang of girls. I hated myself. I hated life. I was introduced to drugs and alcohol, as well as cigarettes, at age 14. I quickly learned to use these means as a way of attempting to cope with the abuse.
I was also raped twice at age 15. I had my first boyfriend shortly after, and sex quickly became a part of our relationship. When he broke up with me, I acted out sexually. I didn’t know at the time that I was suffering post traumatic stress disorder, from all of the abuse, nor did I know I had bipolar.
I was arrested for drunk driving when I was 21. I lost my license, but I kept going out and getting drunk, and realized I could not stop. I had a couple of amazing incidents in my life that freed me from the drugs and alcohol, after 10 years of abuse! I was in recovery, at Alcoholics Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, Sex Addicts Anonymous, and Survivors of Incest Anonymous. I was working hard to heal and to overcome the abuse in my life, after having a son and meeting a man I thought would be the answer to my prayers.