My name is Tanya and I am a Survivor. I was in a domestic violence situation was utterly unbearable. It involved bullying and stalking constantly. As a result I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I remember sitting many days in fear and pain. There were days/weeks/months that I could barely leave my bed. I decided to break through barriers and get professional help as well as rely on my faith to see me through such a tumultuous time. The events that took place were horrific, but I am still here. In my recovery and I am recovering ME. I am STILL HERE. I did not know my own strength!
There is a phrase - “I’m mad and I’m not going to take it anymore.” Well, I’m mad and I’m not going to take stigma home ever. We need to change the-name/title/catch phrases/. Mental Illness is not the case for everyone. And, Mental Health is everyone’s, not just those who have a brain disorder function, be it chemical, hereditary, or imposed. We need more discussion to brain storm the “Stigma” with new definitive terminologies to distinguish the varied conditions of mental disorders.
It’s difficult to give advice to someone with a brain illness because it can be so personal. I, myself, have dealt with bipolar for 19 years starting shortly after my 30th birthday. I also can’t imagine anyone have the same life, but maybe some things are similar. Finding the right medication was a difficult and winding road. And this might sound a little too much like I’m trying to help, but among my many manic episodes in 19 years, I always believed that the police were on my side and that I could trust them. I couldn’t fight the police, and I never did. Aside from that, friends and faith (whatever you might believe) have made my life better. And it shouldn’t be just about coping, life should be more. We should all have enough love left over to share it with someone.
I have a teenage daughter who has been struggling with severe depression. I had no idea it was as bad as this until about a year ago when she had a meltdown and wound up in a hospital for suicidal thoughts. Since then we have been thru several doctors and therapists. She wound up being hospitalized one more time within the year. Leaving my baby in a mental hospital was one of the hardest things I have ever experienced in my life.
It breaks my heart that I can’t seem to help her. Every doctors or therapist reaction seems to be take her to the hospital. But honestly the hospital is just there to get their meds regulated. The insurance companies will not let them stay long enough for the meds to really start working, so i don’t see the point.
We did finally find a good doctor who’s goal was to make her better and keep her out of the facilities. He diagnosed her with ADHD, General Anexiety Disorder, Social Phobia and sever depression. She has gone her whole life without the ADHD being picked up because she is over the top smart and in all higher level classes so no one noticed. We went thru a lot of different meds and thinks we have a good combo. But she still has thoughts. He suggested that she go to DBT therapy.
So now we do DBT 2x a week. And I thought she was doing ok. But now she is very depressed again and hurting herself. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I am always walking on eggshells and just grateful for every moment that she didn’t do something. But she is 17 and soon I will not be able to constantly watch every move. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
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