After suffering 3 major breakdowns with psychotic features….hearing voices, imaginary people telling me what to do, voices telling me that my building was going to blow up, and distancing my children losing custody of my 6 year old, not being around for my daughter’s graduation from high school and my oldest son being in rehab for drug abuse and my husband leaving me I felt like I needed to end my life as I could not see a light at the end of the tunnel….I was in quick sand the more I struggled to get out the deeper I would sink. After many hospitalizations and drug therapies that did not work, I joined a group in Florida called Emotions Anonymous…at first I could not even say my name or a little bit about myself…..then as time went by I learned with the 12 steps to finally understand my illness. I was coming into meetings with a smile on my face and participants were happy to see the change in me and so was I. I have since moved on to a new city, still have contact with my youngest son who is now 26 and we have a great relationship. I take my meds daily and I will never listen to anyone who says I do not need medications because I act so normal, I say the reason that I act so normal is that I take my medication. I have a wonderful Doctor who understands and job that also understands my needs and a few friends that are left who are special.
Anyone who is having trouble with depression should take the necessary steps to get better there are many new medications out there and the balance of the right medications are all you need.
I have been well for 6 years now and I am proud of it…I only have two more years before I retire with 27 years of service at a company that I love.
If anyone has any questions for me please do not hesitate to contact me anytime I UNDERSTAND and only a person who has been there can say that!!!