I am a 61 year old female. I was diagnosed about 1998 with Dissociative Disorder: Not Otherwise Specified (D.I.D. NOS). I had the “classic” breakdown when i was 44 years old. I knew I had had a difficult childhood, but I didn’t know how bad.
Short description: sexual abuse started by age 1, emotional abuse:ditto, watching physical abuse:ditto, experiencing sibling-caused physical abuse: ditto, Being given alcohol by age 2. By the time I was 7 years old, I had had 4 or 5 abusers, all male relatives. After that, until age 14 1/2, “only” one.
First suicide attempt at age 16, countless attempts since. Self-harm started at age 16 1/2. Kicked out by mother same age (She had no room, she said.). Had many sexual partners, didn’t really understand why, didn’t care. Married at age 20, one child, divorced after 3 years, mostly separated. Married and divorced total of 3 times.
Went out of work on disability in 1999. My first Therapist helped to save my life, but forced an integration on me. There are still a few of us in here, but we live a quiet life. I am currently not taking any medication as I cannot afford the meds or the dr appointments. I have been on many D.I.D groups, both in person and online and have learned/taught much.
Although it is still said that D.I.D is rare, I have talked with literally hundreds of folk who have been diagnosed. I will talk openly with anyone, who is not aggressive, about my D.I.D experiences. It feels “good” to know I am not alone. Comfort.