I am 60. I was very depressed and suicidal for many years starting in grade school. I had ripping anxiety attacks in school around tests. I attempted suicide. I found a great therapist who helped me a lot. My major task seemed to be staying alive and hanging in there. I always had hope. Always. Finally when the SSRIs came out, my life began to really get better. I am grateful and proud of myself- I have wrestled this disease- this beast for a long time. It did not win. It will not win.
I still feel down sometimes- but NEVER suicidal- that vanished when I began the SSRIs- gone. Which was very sort of strange and surprising- and good- since I thought about it for decades a lot.
So now I’m 60- a miracle in itself. My life is still not easy. I am still prone to isolation and have not gotten to where I would like to be. But I am self sufficient (with a lot of help from many kind people) and standing on my feet. I had a couple of episodes of tipping into mania from too much meds. so it has been difficult.
I have found that DIFFICULT is worlds away from Depression- which for the most part I do not feel any more. So hang in there. I have a chronic illness you cannot see. I am dealing with it still one day at a time and extremely grateful for the chance to live my life feeling mostly better most of the time.
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