Hi, I’m Becky. I am a mom of three boys and I struggle with bipolar disorder. Being a mom and balancing a mental illness can be tough. I’ll never forget the day I tried to take my life and the police and an ambulance showed up at my door while my kids were playing basketball outside. Some how I had convinced myself that they would be better off without me and they could move on.
It started with postpartum depression. By the third baby I had postpartum psychosis and was hospitalized. I thought I was being followed. I heard voices, and I would later find out that this was my first psychotic episode in a new diagnosis of bipolar disorder.
I tried so many medications and therapy’s. It felt like nothing was working. They finally had me on electroconvulsive therapy every other week. It was working but the depression would come back and I was once again rolled into the room for another round of ECT.
My doctors were so caring and kind. They never gave up on me and neither did my family. My husband moved us down south to live with his parents because I needed help with the kids.
I have a new doctor, new meds, and am on a new routine. It is very helpful to have assistance with the kids. My new Meds make me so drowsy in the morning and I need help.
I know that change is coming. I will not let this illness take control of my life again. There is hope. It takes work, but every day is a little brighter. I have amazing support and love. Together we can overcome.