Hi, I have both bipolar and depression. I disclosed my condition to three primary care doctors’ and got a certified letter telling me they will not treat me because of my condition, which is controlled. I have a new doctor who only knows I have depression and I will not disclose the bipolar part, he cannot tell anyway. I would lose another doctor. Why do these doctors think people with some kind of mental illness will be a problem?
I get my meds through a psychiatrist and he even called these doctors and said I was not a problem patient (they would not buy it). I live in Michigan and the stigma is terrible here, why does it have to be that way? Now I have to have surgery on my hip from a horse that kicked me, it will be arthroscopic and will be okay but I cannot tell my Doctor or the man who puts you under what I take because of what may happen. I know it is a risk but they have no idea I have bipolar disorder but they know I have depression. I know it is dangerous but it is a risk I must take.
I have lost so many friends by disclosing my condition to them and I do not act crazy or do bad things. They just will not want to be my friend. I am lonely but work for myself, have a great husband and lots of pets. I feel like I have a contagious disease like TB that I have to be isolated. I just joined an art class that meets once a week for people with depression and I cannot get in the “in” group yet and they are much older than me. Why are women so mean? I will continue to go but maybe pick another day sometime instead of Wednesdays. It is like their secret club, they were really nice at first, and I minded myself, did not talk too much not too little etc. I thought the older women would be easier but no way. They sat on the other side of the room this time and I was alone with all my stuff on the other with a partition in between. I like this place because everything is free and there is a minimal studio fee.
I will continue to go and not let these women bother me. What will it take for people to know we are “people” and not problems and have feelings?