I’m starting to show signs of depression and anxiety disorder when I was 10. Although I look happy and perfect everyday, I’m actually not. I’ve been bullied, my siblings are away, my parents are busy and they’re not giving attention to me. If I’m chatting with my mom, she’ll get mad and yell “please give me my time, go away” and that’s the main reason why I like to be on my own and all alone. All my friends are backstabbers and I just don’t have someone to talk to.
Every single night I will cry, and when I was 13, I was thinking about suicide a lot, so I decided to take bleach, but suddenly I managed to wake up. I don’t know how or why, but isn’t that a sign that God still wanted me to stay alive?
I’ve never told anyone about this because I’m really afraid they’re going to judge me and calling me an attention seeker. When I was 12 I started cutting, a lot. But now I’m recovering from self-harm and they’re fading away :)
So please, don’t kill yourself. Just walk away from those bullies and just think that they’re just jealous of you because you’re on a higher place than them. Please stay alive, and STAY STRONG <3 YOU ARE NOT ALONE :D