My fiancee is not only the love of my life but my best friend. He motivates me and inspires me thus words cannot describe how much he teaches me every day. You see, my other half has a history of mental illness and substance abuse, however has maintained clean & sober for almost four years (and out of inpatient psych for the same amount of time). Our life together consist of taking things “a day at a time”. Some days his thoughts are fixed on “aliens” and “the government”; and other days on “how great it would be if he could just have a drink.. just one”.
However, I must admit that even on THOSE days hes my inspiration. You see, he perseveres beyond the illness and his disease..he fights his way through the irrational thoughts, paranoia, magical thinking, delusions and cravings. Even then.. amongst it all he tells himself “I’m bigger than this”. Since his last psychotic break, he has put his life back together.. and today I am most definitely his number one fan. On the darkest of days he finds the light and brings that light out in me.
Therefore in order to show him how much I respect and admire who he is, I have changed my lifestyle with him and have not drank in almost four years. Sometimes we crave a drink.. but "ITS A WE THING NOT AN I THING"; WE remind ourselves of what we can lose. WE encourage ourselves and identify our strengths rather than our liabilities. WE are not alone in this fight. WE AREN’T ALONE.. SO WE FIGHT TOGETHER.
"A scar means I survived"; "Struggles are required in order to survive in life because in order to stand up, you gotta know what falling down is like", ‘Fall seven times, stand up eight", "yes there are things im still afraid of but my courage is roaring like the sound of the sun".
-Jen & Chris
"8 yrs strong"
South Miami FL