In the early 80s I was in the army. During my time of service, I got Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Over the ensuing 32 years, I have been through three marriages and the death of a child. The depression, feelings of guilt etc. can be overwhelming.
I live small on a small disability pension. My third wife hates and actively hunts me. She has had me jailed enough times that I have moved far, far away from her. She has since been jailed for her crimes and lying to the police. I learned last night that she has been jailed also for misuse of the 911 emergency line.
I am in a relationship now. My partner also has PTSD and we support each other. We are both agoraphobic and we spend our time at home on the computer. We look at the world with great trepidation and fear. We only leave the house when we have to. And only stay out as long as absolutely necessary.
In the last 20 years or so I have done a lot of growing and healing. I know I will never be “normal” again. I “get by” and I hide from the world. I hope if you know someone with PTSD you will be gentle with them. That you will make yourself available to just LISTEN to them and try to understand them and what they go through on a daily basis.
It is not their fault. They did not ask for it.