My nightmare story began a year ago two weeks ago from today something that came at us without wondering completely blindsided without firsthand knowledge.
My son has been diagnosis with schizophrenia disorder. Although, I feel he knows he is sick he has not accepted it. He tries to fight with us at every level about everything as he so graciously tells me all the time that he is grown. He has grandiose behaviors with dellusional thoughts,he been hospitalized three times, he feels the need to take off without notice for days with us left looking for him. His most resent episode was to jump out his bedroom window thank GOD no injuries. He feels we are keeping him hostage not allowing him to do things indepedently, go anywhere and that we treat him unfairly different as opposed to his siblings. I explained to him that he was correct because he is different and I love him dearly and that I’m sorry he is uncomfortable with the love that we are displaying, but we do love him and that we need him safe. In addition, i also told he could do and go anywhere he likes within reason but not alone for the very reason stated above. Also, I explained to him that I trust he will become much more functional and he can more forward with his life in a safe manner but of course he doesn’t agree. I don’t know if I am doing everything correctly or incorrectly by him, but what I do know is that he is my baby and I’m going to do whatever it takes to keep him safe and on the road to recovery.
Lastly, I do feel like this endeavor our family has to embrace and be very supportive of one another seems so alone to me largely because my family needs to become better educated about this disease as I have done even though I still don’t know it all, but it has put me in a better place of understanding to better advocate for him. I do feel stressed and alone because I have to carry the heavy by myself with all of them.
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