When I was 4 years old I was kidnapped by my biological father and was gone for 4 days. I was dirty. Nobody bathed me or anything besides feed me. 4 days later my mom found me and I was happy. But after I was taken home I was scared of noises (ex. The phone ringing, doorbells, thunder, a knock on the door.) When I was 7 years old my mom and step-dad got a divorce which was really hard on me. They always argued about everything and they used to make me pick sides. Then when I was 8 my mom abandoned me. She left with her new boyfriend. She dropped me off at my godmoms house for 5 months I had no contact with her what so ever. Within those 5 months my god mom and I became really close. Then when I was 9 I started getting picked on. I was called names all the time (ex.worthless, fat, ugly, waste of space). People talked about me behind my back and there was a whole bunch of rumors. Then when I was 10 my god mom died. I was devastated, sad, and angry. After that I stopped believing in god. When I was 11 I was sexually harassed for several months before we got him to quit. Then when I was 12 I got sexually harassed quite a few more times. And then I was molested by my uncle. After that I was in 7th grade thinking my year was going to be great but I was wrong. People call me horrible names to my face and behind my back (ex.whore, slut, cunt, dirty, worthless, fat, ugly, waste of space, useless etc…). I then started to cut and have suicidal thoughts. I have 534 scars on my body. I am not proud of them but I didn’t know what to do to relive the pain that I was in. I was planning to kill myself the day after my birthday and I told a few of my friends at school and they told the office cause they were scared. That night I was admitted to the hospital. I was in there for 6 days. I didn’t want to go but I did for my friends and family. While i was there i learned how to deal with things in a much healthier way. Yes the rumors and stuff still remain but I don’t care anymore I just let it go instead of bothering me. I have quite of few friends who are just like me and I help them through it everything…
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