I have been diagnosed for ten years. It hasn’t been an easy trip. I would act so crazy to have everyone in my life either in denial or uneasy around me. Before i was diagnosed my family thought i was having odd behavior to hurt them. It was the furthest from the truth. I’ve got journals over twenty years of lifetime experience with this disorder. The road to recovery isn’t easy. you see, i am both schizophrenic and bipolar. In sharing my story with you I ask that you have an open mind.
My grandma was mentally ill, so from the time i was born it was normal to talk to people no one could see. something tragic happened to me when i was eight and i seen this figure known as Trent. It never occured to me that he wasn’t real because my grandma could see people that weren’t there also.
When I was twenty two i couldn’t leave my house because I thought people were out to get me. My boss told my mom that I needed treatment and i went to a theropist, but quit seeing her because i thought she was out to kill me.
Twenty six came along, and I was in the middle of a full fledged psycosis. I was walking in -7* weather barefoot on some great mission. Even then I realized I needed treatment but had no clue how to go about it. My mom put me in the hospital because she feared for my life. While there, a fellow schizophrenic man came up to me and started talking. I understood every word he said because my mind was thinking the same things about colors and there meaning. It was like an universal blueprint into the mind of schizophrenia. The healing process began.
Now at the age of thirty three. I know how to get treatment. and my medication is working great. My theropist says i can be an advocate for having lived through this. I only want to heal others that are just starting out on this journey. I have much insight into both disorder. I know medication is a key componant to making sure the disorder is managed.
Thankyou for your time. Happy healing