In August, 2011 I received a final email from my mother who has Borderline Personality Disorder, is extremely narcissistic and also has OCD. She was no longer speaking to me and was going to remember the “good time” we had in the past.
The very next day, my sister called. She has Bipolar Disorder and an Anxiety Disorder and struggles with alcohol abuse. She had been in therapy and uncovered her child sexual abuse, perpetrated by my father, who has Bipolar Disorder and an Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder and recovering alcoholic.
That was when my world began to slip. I always had ADHD and an Anxiety Disorder, with traits of OCD. My meds seemed to stop working.
Finally, October of 2012, during an EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization) session, my own sexual abuse was uncovered. The memories that I had repressed for so many years came flooding back, traumatizing me all over again. I developed PTSD from the memories and my therapist abandoned me 8 weeks after my abuse came to light, because I wasn’t miraculously getting better with the EMDR.
I found another EMDR therapist and I’ve been working with her for about a year now. I still jerk my feet just a little when laying down and sometimes my shoulder and head as well, just slightly. Negative events can cause a relapse of stronger symptoms, BUT I’m getting better. I’m also a therapist myself and just finished the training for EMDR and now help people who have experienced trauma. I’ve learned a lot and know what NOT to do as a therapist!