My name is Whitney I found I had bi-polar a couple of months ago. But before all these things happend to me I was enjoying life. I went to back to school to be a Floral Designer. I met new friends things were going great!! Then things changed for me really quickly I was going up and down all the time. I thought it was normal for me. Not thinking how it would effect my friends and family. Little by little things were getting worse for me. At this point I did’t want to go to school I felt like dropping out. I felt like no one at school understood what I was feeling or going through. I was so scared about going to school while I was in PHP that I had to turn my homework in at the flower shop. I lost so many friends because they all found out I was in treatment and didnt want anything to do with me anymore. After that I hardly went to hang with the friends I did have.
Then one day the school called Crisis on me because I couldn’t take what was going on with me. I felt like no one understood me and I needed to talk someone. So then for two weeks I was in php. I was doing that and school at the same time. I felt good in the groups I honestly didn’t want to leave.I was with people who understood me. I not only have bi polar but I have depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. But with everything going on I was getting stronger everyday.
Summer came I was getting even stronger. I took what I learned in groups and applied them to my life. I was in a WRAP class over the summer. It helped a lot for me. I started a Facebook group. It was all a positive!! I hung out with my true friends. But anyone who has bi-polar you never know how its gonna be a minute from now or ten minutes now. But I know I can get through anything no matter in the good days and in bad.But I am still currently in school. People are still giving me a hard time and still see me as my mental illness and not me. Some people wont just see me for who I am. Some of my friends wont even talk to me anymore.
So I made the choice to start a support group at school. Being in college you have to see what happends I hope it goes through I have a lot of faith and believe its gonna happen. So I can bring awareness to my peers. Because we are not alone. But I starting to make the change NOW!!!
The rest I can’t predict the if its gonna change things in my wellness recovery journey. But I am a fighter. I can do anything and so can you. I am just full of a lot of hope with my recovery.