Everything started when my parents split. That, in itself, brought immense change, stress, and sadness into my life, as divorce has been known to do; not to mention, it was my softmore year of high school, a hard time for the best of us. At this point, I started to feel sad more often than normal, but with the support of my girlfriend at the time, it was manageable. Then, I started to see life more clearly; I started to see who my dad really was and that shattered my world. I saw how neglecting he was of me and my brother, how little he really cared. Slowly, this fact weighed on me and destroyed my sanity. I started into periods of depression where I just felt empty, and this emptiness made me feel selfish, which made me feel worse. Soon after, I developed insomnia and anxiety, having panic attacks every so often. I made it through softmore year and half of junior year until I lost it. Me and my girlfriend of a year and a half broke up, shattering my only good support system, since my mom couldn’t help me. I started cutting regularly, having panic attacks daily, and I just felt like life wasn’t worth living. This all culminated to one particularly nasty night of cutting, followed by a panic attack, leading me to going to the cabinet, pulling out the sleeping pills, and seriously considering ending my life. Thankfully, I put the pills away and lived through the night; it was about two weeks after this that I decided I needed to make a change or I would die. I made a complete 180; I started focusing on the positive things in my life, started cutting out the negative people, and started standing up for myself. I eventually confronted my dad and now have a healthy relationship with him. My scars have all pretty much healed and I’m striving to get a degree in psychology. I now live my life by a motto that I recently got tattooed on my chest, “it’s only after we’ve lost everything that we are free to do anything.” Though things may get tough, the possibilities are endless when you come out on the other side and find the peace within yourself.