I’ve been fighting a fight that I never knew existed. I couldn’t stop talking to the voices (noises) in my head & it seemed to be affecting my surroundings too. I feared hurting others by having it spread to them. I finally found a Psychiatrist who understands my statements that it’s caused by lack of sleep & being overactive by homelessness. A housing organization showed up at the right time. They were about to put me away for life. I was exercising my 5th Amendment & Miranda right to remain silent & was provoked into screaming (I don’t even know what I screamed, but it wasn’t me.) I let the Dr. go on & on each day, telling me what he expected from me, & he finally started asking, “Do you have any questions?” My response was always, “When am I leaving?” At first the answer was “When you conform.” !!!!!!!!!! “Then it changed to “WE have nowhere to release you to.” I had been calling the shelter every day & finally, they had a bed for me! I asked at the desk, “Can I leave now?” Affirmative, & an apartment was already being described to me. Finally, God had found me where he’s not allowed! All I had of my belongings was a pack of cigs & a hairbrush & $10. When I got in the car, I asked the source of my losing everything again, “Do you mind if I smoke?” He said no. I got set up at the shelter & from then on was having situations solved! What a relief! @ 1/4 years have gone by, on a perscription they’ve been forcing me to be on for 9 years. I asked my present DR. if I could try a prescription I was on in the beginning of it all. It had been making me fall asleep at work, but being disabled, I don’t have to worry about it anymore. I need to make up for 9 years of lost sleep. I’ve been doing that with sleep meds, but if the old (new) prescription makes me tired, I won’t even be taking the sleep meds anymore. I saw a movie the other night, that showed me I have to face my fears, be honest with myself & those who care, & finally conquer. It’s problem~solution for me now &after talking to the noises for so long, I’m like a 6 year old, multi-tasking what i want to say to who! Of course, I have to give it time. Meds don’t work right away, but I went from limbo to Mental Balance in a week’s time. I go to a support group & will begin volunteering at its location next week. I’m in the middle of writing a movie I want to learn how to do computer generated animation for. I’ve been tidier than usual. So many activities that aren’t taking my mind off things. I’m finally allowed by getting off that dreaded psych med! God Bless you all & Bring you success in all your efforts. I know you need NAMI Representatives in my area & I’d like to be more involved. IOOV is a great idea! Syster.