I’d struggled for years with Mental Illness prior to being diagnosed by a doctor and prescribed medication. I suffered from PTSD due to suffering emotional, physical and sexual abuse throughout my childhood and early teen years. I began self-harming and abusing alcohol before I became a teenager. I struggled with hallucinations, delusions, outbursts of anger and inappropriate activities for years. It wasn’t until late 2012 that I was hospitalized for psychosis and attempting suicide. I’d had issues with psychosis prior to the extreme incident in November of 2012. But something happened after the birth of my fourth child that triggered the violent outburst.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Schizophrenia, with Anxiety Disorder, OCD and Borderline Personality Disorder. At first I was embarrassed by my diagnoses, but I soon realized that if anyone had a problem with my Mental Illness that wasn’t MY problem. I needed help, friends intervened, I received help and I’m working on stability FOR ME. The reason I’m no longer ashamed of my Mental Illness is because I want everyone to have the confidence to speak up and reach out if they need help. You’re not weak just because you don’t feel normal. I’m a mother, a wife, a hard-worker, a community volunteer, a donor, a spokeswoman…who also happens to be living with Mental Illness. There is hope. There is help. You are NOT alone.