Having inherited depression from my father, who coincidentally has treated me horribly all my life, was just the beginning. My only family growing up was my mom and my grandparents, my mom’s parents. Between ages 12 and fifteen, all three of them had died. Ending up living with my father, my step-mom, my two older step-brothers and younger half-brother, left me feeling like an alien. Yet an alien with a large trust fund from my dead family. Money really does not ever buy what you really need - love. Since then, I have lived 25 years and probably experienced just about everything; being used for money with fake friendships and boyfriends with fake love, being pregnant at the altar with a pre-nup that lead to abuse, divorce and a bogus custody battle because he did not want to pay child support. He backed out one month before final hearing causing me to lose the rest of my money and my house. Had tried several medications since age 19, including being in-patient for many suicide attempts (last suicide attempt was May 4, 2012 in a motel room). Been homeless many times. Did so many illegal drugs and alcohol. Rented rooms and stayed with many people including strangers. I was raped, beaten, then kept hostage in room rented in July 2012 with access to use bathroom/shower, starved, a/c was blocked from my room… I finally escaped only to find myself escaping from another place 7 months later to save my life and my unborn child. Homeless, pregnant, sick and had gestational diabetes then my son was born four weeks early c-section due to having preeclampsia. Postpartum depression+ general depression, anxiety…still alone with no one to help me with ride to store for food and formula. I have lived in my own apartment since January 2, 2014 and have not seen my 15 year-old daughter since before Christmas. My son, now ten months old, keeps me alive. I write so much every chance I get. The more I write and read later, then write more and read later, the more I learn about myself. Medication is not the answer to solving mental illnesses, treatment, yes, but not the “answer”! The more you learn about yourself the more of a chance you will find the “real answer”!