The signs of my illness began when I was a teenager. For me, it was difficult because those were years when I wanted to experience highschool and finding more out about myself. The most painful part was losing those years and regressing without my own control until I got on medication.
Imagine being unable to write a clear concise sentence after being an honors student for your whole life. Imagine having paranoia hit you full first, the erratic actions that you can’t control turning you into someone else. It takes inner strength and a sort of manic energy to overcome schizophrenia.
My nightmare story began a year ago two weeks ago from today something that came at us without wondering completely blindsided without firsthand knowledge.
My son has been diagnosis with schizophrenia disorder. Although, I feel he knows he is sick he has not accepted it. He tries to fight with us at every level about everything as he so graciously tells me all the time that he is grown. He has grandiose behaviors with dellusional thoughts,he been hospitalized three times, he feels the need to take off without notice for days with us left looking for him. His most resent episode was to jump out his bedroom window thank GOD no injuries. He feels we are keeping him hostage not allowing him to do things indepedently, go anywhere and that we treat him unfairly different as opposed to his siblings. I explained to him that he was correct because he is different and I love him dearly and that I’m sorry he is uncomfortable with the love that we are displaying, but we do love him and that we need him safe. In addition, i also told he could do and go anywhere he likes within reason but not alone for the very reason stated above. Also, I explained to him that I trust he will become much more functional and he can more forward with his life in a safe manner but of course he doesn’t agree. I don’t know if I am doing everything correctly or incorrectly by him, but what I do know is that he is my baby and I’m going to do whatever it takes to keep him safe and on the road to recovery.
Lastly, I do feel like this endeavor our family has to embrace and be very supportive of one another seems so alone to me largely because my family needs to become better educated about this disease as I have done even though I still don’t know it all, but it has put me in a better place of understanding to better advocate for him. I do feel stressed and alone because I have to carry the heavy by myself with all of them.
Hi. I have a younger brother (21) who is schizophrenic. It started out a couple years ago, he was diagnosed bi polar. He was 51/50 and was taking meds for a little while. He was out of control so we moved him to Florida to live with our older brother. He stopped taking his meds and fell deep into depression but was no longer manic. In November I noticed he was getting ill again but this time much worse. He is now I believe full blown schizophrenic living on the streets living in hallucinations. It is awful. I don’t know how to help him because he doesn’t think he needs help. He’s been admitted into the hospital twice within a month or two and hasn’t helped at all. I don’t know what to do because California Law says if they don’t want help you can’t force him but I’m losing my brother and watching him live in complete insanity. I am completely heart broken. What do I do? I need help but I feel like it’s impossible. I feel so alone and so lost. I just want my brother back.
I was diagnosed with bipolar in 1999 after psychosis and schizophrenia diagnosis. It has been hard because prior to receiving any diagnosis, I discovered that I was pregnant. So during much trial and error, my daughter has had to endure some instability. I only disclose my illness to those close to me, because of the intense stigma. Some people assume a high level of intelligence negates the possibility of someone having a mental illness. Not so. I have experienced the awkwardness of hearing the labels placed on the mentally ill. I am officially tired of it. So I don’t care who knows that I am bipolar, because I am still human.
This is my story as a Father and the journal I’ve kept for many years. It’s the beginning of my daughters first two years and her/our battle and realization that she has been diagnosed with Schizophrenia. We are getting support but oh how it has changed our lives. She is 24 and married with a four year old little boy. I hope in some way it can help other families understand the process that may be before them. Stay strong.
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