My heart aches to much to forgive,
My eyes to swollen to forget,
It’s been years,
Seems like yesterday,
The pain so fresh,
The tears so near,
I can forgive but I will never forget.
Drawing inspiration from a chapter in my new book, Give Sorrow Words, ‘A letter to Daniel’ illustrates the emotional pain of depression and the brutality of losing a loved one to suicide.
My hope is ‘A letter to Daniel’ offers further understanding of the consequences of living with untreated depression and the overwhelming grief that ensues in the wake of such senseless loss. What began as a series of beautiful images has transformed into a powerful message that has the potential to change the direction of someone’s life.
In the past year since I have moved back to Birmingham, Mountain Brook has been plagued with a number of needless tragedies. Because of this, I cannot stay quiet any longer. I posted something along the lines of this article and I got an overwhelming response, I feel compelled to embellish and hopefully I can touch a few more lives. I may ramble my way through some of this so bear with me.
I suffer from Depression. There, I said it. It is out there. It stinks. Some days I wish I could get a brain transplant. It hurts so badly. Deep in my soul it hurts. Some days it just hurts to live. Sound familiar? Keep reading.
I’ve always struggled with my mental health. I started having mental health problems as a freshman in high school at the age of 15 years old. I was bullied relentlessly and was told to kill myself one day and actually attempted suicide at the age of 15 one week before spring break would begin. I was already set to go on a trip and so I was really glad my attempt failed, so I got to go to the Bahamas, but then the bullying continued after spring break.
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