Acceptance
I thought that I had accepted my mental illness long ago. After all, I was taking medication and attending counseling after being hospitalized for months in a state psychiatric hospital. Here I was an “advocate” for mental health but refused to disclose to anyone that I was suffering. It wasn’t until I moved back to my hometown and got involved as a mental health advocate for NAMI that I realized what exactly accepting a mental health diagnosis meant.
Accepting meant that I was going to no longer stigmatize myself for being ill. A condition, is a condition, is a condition. I wouldn’t treat someone with diabetes any differently for being ill so why was I holding myself up to such a ridiculous standard? Accepting meant that I was not afraid to stand in front of a group of 20 strangers and disclose what I thought was my biggest secret in order to educate the community. For so long I wanted change to the system, change to mental health care. The only way that change is going to happen is if we all accept our conditions and reduce the stigmatization. Through acceptance and education comes change.
That change is exactly what I am seeing in myself and my community now. After going through facilitator training for the NAMI Connection Recovery Support Group program I started a support group for adults with mental illness in my community. I now sit on the advisory board for my mental health agency and my local NAMI affiliate as a mental health consumer. I am no longer afraid to say that I have a mental illness and advocate for those who have not yet reached that stage in their recovery or are unable to advocate for themselves. There is help and there is hope.

