I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder nearly 15 years ago, and later received a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder of the bipolar type. The second hospitalization following a manic episode was the most difficult–26 days in a state institution–and by the third hospitalization I’d decided that something needed to change: I had to take control of my life. Taking medication consistently was one thing, but cutting all alcohol and drugs altogether was the thing that made all the difference. Without drugs altering my mental balance, I was able to stabilize my moods and get my life together. I started my own editing business and currently run two successful businesses. I’ve also written a book about my illness. I have 7 employees and haven’t looked back on that life that once seemed so hopeless. Once I realized that 1) I wasn’t a victim and everyone has issues and 2) I may have to alter how I live, but my life can still be productive and successful, I was able to get out of the cycle of self-pity. Ultimately, what helped me move on was the realization that I, not my illness, am in charge of my own destiny. There are still difficult days, but I’ve learned that depression and paranoia always end, and coping mechanisms help get me through difficult times. Meditation helps, as does taking time to walk in the woods.