Pain takes over again, like poison in the veins.
I am weak for I know no other way.
When will I ever be back to okay?
Racing thoughts engulf me like a plague.
Surrounded by sorrow is where I stay.
Can I move or will I sink deeper within?
I don’t know whether to end or begin again.
I’m fearful of going back to being alone.
I’m fearful of continuing to take it day by day.
Is it so hard to be so clear?
I don’t make sense of all my doubt and fear.
My lack of understanding is evident.
My heart finds it difficult to be content.
Somewhere under the rubble is a heart full of joy.
I must find the meaning of it all.
I need to continue to grow till tall.