Darkest before the Dawn

My intention is to fearlessly share awareness on a topic we silence due to shame and stigma. 40 million adults in the US ages 18+ struggle with anxiety and depression. Many of your loved ones (often those you least expect) have experienced some form of this.

If someone said this would happen to me, I would have laughed. “Me…dark and dissociated?? No way.” Yes way baby, and it crept in like an unwanted guest that I eventually had to greet.

Losing my light felt like losing myself. Having always been known for my energy and optimism, I began to accept that something was off in my behavior. The life force I love behind my eyes was slowly vanishing. My emotions and reactions took on a life of their own and I became unrecognizable to friends and to myself. I was living in a dissociated state where time blurred together and I couldn’t be present with anyone. This experience shook me to my core, but awakened me even brighter.

To my family and friends that show up with unconditional love, my gratitude can never be repaid. I’m learning immensely powerful lessons, healing techniques, and deeper knowledge of this topic.