You Are Not Alone and Can Get Through This!!!

I have had ptsd since having traumatic medical conditions as a child at the age of 4 and once again at 7 and then once again at 9 ( I had cancer where the chemo caused me to have a spinal cord injury) I developed traits of ptsd and borderline personality disorder at the age of 12. I kept acting out and getting in trouble with the law because I didn’t know how to cope with it all. Constant panic attacks about what had happened and disassociating from triggering situations often. I went from treatment center to treatment center because my parents didn’t know what to do with me anymore. My symptoms got worse as I felt trapped around people who weren’t wanting to help me live the best version of me possible. I attempted suicide at the age of 12 and once again at 15 and then again at 16 and 18. I felt so alone until I found someone who was willing to help me. My parents hired her and I have thrived from there, I can’t say I don’t still have issues but with a good therapist and with supportive people who have been through similar situations I have become a great version of myself. I never stop trying to improve myself and trust in the skills I’ve learned. I know life won’t ever be easy and some situations aren’t gonna be a quick fix but I always know that it IS in fact possible to get through it all as long as I trust that my higher power is with me, and I love myself! Life is worth living and it’s worth fighting against the constant thoughts in my head that I’m not enough because I know that I matter and I know that my experiences are things so many people go through. To change one life or to help one person get out of the deep hole they have been in or to help someone from going down the wrong path for the valid feelings they are having would mean the world to me. To save one life if my story can help one person or save someone from the path I was once going down than I would be beyond blessed!