Not really sure how this thing works, but I’m going to try to do my best. Both of my parents are recovering drug addicts and they are now alcoholics and have been since I was really little. My parents have mentally and verbally abused me. I’ve seen my dad and my mom physically abuse each other. I’ve struggled with physically harming myself and have made a suicide attempt in the past. I have struggled with an eating disorder in the past from eating nothing to binging. I hate it because I can’t even eat anything without feeling like I’m eating too much or I’m eating too little. I got addicted to nicotine and it really sucks. My life is really amazing sometimes. I have an amazing and wonderful boyfriend who loves me and is always there for me and knows everything about me and my family. I have a really great groups of friends who I can talk to about this stuff without any judgement. Sometimes though, my life is awful. I get really bad panic and anxiety attacks for no reason and I have awful social anxiety. I’ve been trying to establish a good and healthy relationship with my parents and it’s going pretty well so far. I’ve stopped physically hurting myself, I’ve stopped abusing nicotine and eating is getting a lot easier. These past three weeks have been really bad though. Suicide has been on my mind. I’ve been thinking about hurting myself again. I’ve been binging all the time. I’ve had so many panic attacks. I just keep thinking that I don’t deserve this. I’ve been struggling with all this stuff for 5 years. When is this going to end? I hate myself for everything I’ve done to the people that I love. I’ve asked my parents to help me with this stuff, but they told me I’m an attention seeker and I’m only doing this stuff for the drama. That’s a big reason why my relationship with my parents is messed up. I’m trying to make it better, but it’s hard when it feels like they don’t care about me, but I know they’re just scared and don’t know what to do. I need help from them and I need them to at least try to be there for me. I’ve talked about seeing a therapist, but they always say I don’t need it because I’m only doing this for attention. How long do I have to deal with this for it to finally go away?