Always Look For The Light

I suffer from Bi-Polar 1 Mixed type with Psychotic features, Adult ADHD, & General Anxiety Disorder. I’ve seen worse, LOL. Last month I rear ended a truck at 40mph. (obstruction caused cars to sudden halt I just wasn’t fast enough) airbag worked, Thank God. I immediately got out to check on other driver (she was fine), she was angry at first but saw my concern & confusion & helped  me sit down. 

FYI, there were no drugs, alcohol, warrants or any type of criminal activity involved.  I was keeping it together so far.  Ambulance & Police officers arrived, in the ambulance I felt a little off (Im sure you know what I mean) I told them about my condition & meds & I was having hard time swallowing, chest & arms a little sore but no serious damage so no hospital needed just my water bottle. The EMT’s explained my condition to the officer & he immediately handcuffed me & placed me in back of his vehicle (for peoples safety he said) and dislocated my shoulder in the process. I told him the pain was unbearable & something was wrong, he replied that now I have another condition called incareritus (cop joke) It went downhill from there,  I was sent to ER, mistakenly taken to jail, & somehow misplaced in there system, each time explaining  I have a mental illness that needs to be addressed I went 30 hours without any medication, consultation or contact with my wife.  I was absolutely profiled and judged and not taken seriously the second I mentioned mental illness.   It was so horrible but there is a bright side, in these 30 hours of misery my support network (wife, family, psychiatrist, & psychologist) did not let up until I was found, released & charges were dismissed.  I want to you to know that in spite of it all, focusing, breathing, meditating & CBT practice helped me not lose myself into psychosis or mania.  I have never had to apply these steps so hard in my life but I did.  So there are people that care, there are people that believe in you and your needs and the things you learn by taking your condition seriously and following steps can make the difference. So please don’t give up.  Sometimes bad things happen & that’s why we have family, friends and organizations that accept us & are there for us.  Stay Strong!!!! I know I am.