Misunderstood

I struggle from depression and social anxiety. I have these moments where I’m so bubbly and goofy that if you didn’t know me you’d believe I was living my best life, and sometimes I actually fool myself into believing that. Then a couple seconds, minutes or hours go by and my energy suddenly disappears.

People look at me and ask me, what’s wrong with you? Or tell me that I was just fine a couple days ago. That leaves me to believe that I always have to explain myself because no one understands. And when they don’t understand it makes me want to disappear and go back into my little black box, which makes me feel protected from the outside world.

So I always feel misunderstood. I hope I can overcome this feeling one day