Fear of the Everyday Struggles Because of Deception **Trigger Warning**

There are so many different things to set anyone into any type of mental state. I never quite understood it, and I’d even turn my head when the commercials would say “depression hurts”. 

Its a daily struggle because of different turns my life has made. Commonly made mistake to my knowledge now, is that falling in love could really end up the beginning of deception. I opened myself up to one person and gave him my all, to find myself in the end struggling to be myself because I’m posed with a man who is using any tiny flaw against me, with daily common stabs. It just doesn’t seem fair. It feels like the unthinkable is happening and that justice will never really be seen. The mental abuse and anguish that i suffer after simply falling in love and starting a family is one of the hardest things that I’ve ever had to deal with. 

i never thought that i could struggle with depression or any type of mental condition. Following my path has lead me into what feels like a life controlled by everyone else with my opinion not mattering at all. No one should have to live that way! 

One thing that helps me move through my days, are kind acts and prayers or comments from complete strangers. In some way it feels like my god is answering my prayers.