What can i do?

Hey , i dont know what to do , i’m in a gap year so no more school for me at least for now ): and it really sucks but what else can i do? I cant Afford college and i have to pay for gymnastics , i need to buy a camera because i need it for college , and the only way that i can go to college is looking for schorlarships because i am on my own , i’m not from the states so is even harder to find just one , no it sounds like i have a lot of things to do but i’m doing nothing , i’m sleeping or just watching Netflix , i do look for scholarships but no like i should , and it sucks because i feel usseless and my depression is just hitting me , my Friends are doing their best to but for now i am alone , everyone is doing their own things to survive just like i am , but still i dont want i can do to be the person that i was before , i used to be busy eeall the time with training , school , projects , phoshots but now i just feel like i cant put myself to do something productive