*Trigger Warning*

I haven't  spoke of this in almost a year now. It was September 9, 2018 I received a message to contact my father, I contacted him right away to learn my 11 year old daughter had hung herself.  I was at a total loss, I went to downtown walking blindly, I was angry with God, angry with myself, and angry with her, I returned home to bury my daughter the following day.  Prior to the death  I was a recovering alcoholic, the only way I new not to feel was drink, I drank for 10 months and soon found myself drunk and depressed,  I decided to take my own life as well, it didn’t happen that way, u went to the local or and got help I needed, I still am full of questions, but today I strive to help others and make young adults aware.