I was diagnosed with depression at 24 years old..I knew something with majorly wrong with the way I felt I knew it wasn’t a normal down mood.. Then around 28 years old is when I got the panic and anxiety disorder which for like a month I could not sleep, eat I was so sick but I didn’t know what was going on.. I have been on medication since I have been 24 years old.. One medication I am on is for anxiety and panic and I dislike the stigma that I abuse those just because they are controlled substance.. My disorder is so bad and that is scary when the Doctors do that when they threaten to take you off of stuff that is what I hate the most .I got an addiction and I am recovering but it is so hard because it made me feel better to numb everything

I have had three suicide attempts in my life I really did not want to die but I also felt like maybe it would be better to not be here but deep down I didn’t want to die I just wanted to feel better….Two years ago on July 6th 2018 I lost a cousin to Suicide she was only 23 years old…..I did the walk two years ago for her and for me and others with mental illness that runs in my family and also strangers….. It is an awful thing to have but there are ways that you can still have a good life on the right meds and with therapy and everything….