I have been involved with NAMI Stark County, Ohio, for over eight years now. Prior to that, I saw myself as a victim (of the illnesses themselves, of the stigma attached to these labels, and of the healthcare system). Diagnosed in 1992, my first hospitalization involved being strapped down for hours; left in a padded room with nothing but a camera on me (which wasn’t legal, but I didn’t know that then.) Soon after came two suicide attempts. I was very despondent about having to drop out of college to find myself now labeled, “crazy,” by society.
My mindset moved from being a victim to a “Survivor” when I re-enrolled in college in 1998. My medications were working, but not great. It took a long time to graduate, due to numerous dropped classes when the stress exacerbated my symptoms.
Today, however, I am a “Thriver.” Between my medication, nine years of therapy, and keeping my body and mind on the same schedule each day; I am happy to report that I now hold a job for NAMI. I am paid to help others like me, and their support networks, better navigate their ways through everything that changes due to their illnesses. NAMI profoundly changed my outlook on life — now I pay it forward.