My life has been filled with horrific trauma unlike many of the stories from hundreds of others who endured child sexual abuse and other types of violent acts within their home. I’ve been left with deep pitted scars that cover almost my entire body from the rot which an entire community watched as it ate away at my skin from not being able to safely bathe in my own home. My emotional wounds from vicious violent attacks beginning at age 5 and lasting into adult relationships and marriages until age 37, has left me wounded in ways I cannot explain. Many do not see my scars, they do not understand the evil my life has consisted of, but today I am fighting with every breath in my being to make a difference in whatever way possible. We never know how our story will inspire the life of another, and thankfully my story has touched hundreds of lives already and was used in the published form as an educational tool for upcoming family & marriage therapists. 

The level of evil and sadistic attacks from my stepfather, which were permitted by my mother, and as I grew many male school mates and local townsmen who worked in the coalmine were invited and took part in partied where I was the featured entertainment. This was all my normal and it distorted all of my perceptions and decisions in what was safe, acceptable, and then invaded my children’s lives as they watched their mother be beaten to a pulp and degraded by every person who came into her life. In almost 35 years of one single person trying to find someone who was safe and someone to show an ounce of affection/love; I endured more than most movie producers could possibly even create in their imaginations.

I am researching many options in which to share my story and help end what has become so commonplace in our society. We have been taught throughout generations these abuses and harmful attacks against our children, partners/spouses was all to be expected & kept quiet within the family circle. This training of silence & tolerance is what traps our children still today. How do you encourage a child of 5 or 6 to report constant ongoing attacks against them at home? The best we can provide is to understand the deep impacts of just one single attack and then provide rescue and recovery intervention for that individual. I am hoping to share, ‘My Justice’ on as many platforms as possible. There is also a huge advocate work I’ve been doing these past three years in creating a featured radio network & helpful recovery & empowerment/educational site to explain more on these topics. I hope to connect with every mental health organization to work or share with them about the research being done on a child’s developing brain and the trauma from the years of being silenced, held captive, and destroyed by the parents entrusted with their care.