I finally came to accept that I have a mental illness. Having PTSD, Psychosis Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (NOS), Mood Disorder NOS and Borderline Personality disorder is a struggle. It’s hard fighting invisible battles that nobody see’s but you. I’m only 19. The severe mood swings from extremely happy to severely depressed in 2.5 seconds, the flashbacks, the outer body experiences. Why me I never asked to be abused. No matter how many people that surrounds me I always feel alone. Empty like a never ending hole has engulfed my mind. I’ve been battling myself since I was 12, but now that I have accepted it completely… Maybe I can finally be at peace.